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Week 22 – Going it Alone!

New ideas/experiences challenge our thinking and inevitably force us to construct new knowledge.

I am trying to be mindful of this.  I am taking a class at university that is challenging my way of thinking – and the way I conduct myself.  The class is set in a social, collaborative environment.  It is a group of women talking about women and how we best learn and how we could best teach women.  The class is very comfortable – so the internal struggles and conflicts are non-existent.  Everyone shares and creativity ensues.

I love this class!  The concepts are difficult, but our knowledge is created mutually within the group.  The only conflicts experienced are those that challenge our existing beliefs – causing us to think critically and possibly alter our point of view.

What does this have to do with my training?!!

Well, I have decided to leave my trainer and go it alone.  I always thought I needed someone to instruct me when/what to eat, how to train.  This is something I believed about myself.  I didn’t think I could do it on my own.  Well, after thinking critically about it, I have decided that YES I can!

Here goes 🙂

Melissa

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Week 20 – Day 6 — Catchy Motivation

I went to see a bodybuilding show today.  Everyone looked fantastic!  There was a lot of hard work and dedication!  It was fun to be in the crowd watching, as opposed to being part of the show.  I definitely enjoyed it.

It is fantastic to see people reach their goals.  The competitors presented themselves very professionally, and you could see their pride and enthusiasm shining through.  What a wonderful experience!

My motivation is through the roof.  I think I may have caught it from the competitors at the show today 🙂  There is nothing like seeing what is possible, to give you that extra push.

I am feeling fine!  I started a new nutrition plan this week, and have endless energy 🙂  Woot!  Now I have increased motivation to boot!

Go me!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 19 – Day 5 — Comfort Zone = No Change Zone!

It seems as though I am a Friday night kind of blogger 🙂

This was my third week back at the gym – back in my old stomping grounds!

When I was training for competition I loved being in the gym.  I loved everything about it.  At that time I was really comfortable in my skin and throwing a bit of weight around didn’t bother me one bit.

Up until three weeks ago I had been doing the majority of my workouts at home.  I really enjoyed this because I didn’t have to worry about the “gym crowd” being around.  I would saunter down to my basement and get my workout in.  This quickly became my comfort zone.

Or was it my “No Change Zone”?  Let me try to explain what I mean…

The recent changes in my training plan have me back at the gym.  This was really tough for me at first (gym anxiety).  I was nervous about seeing people there that I used to see when I was in competition shape.  I was constantly worried about what they were thinking…if they would think I had just given up.  I kind of sort of maybe really wanted to walk around with a sign on my back that said “Metabolically Damaged”.

Summary of my last three weeks’ gym experience:

Week 1 – Ahhhhh!!!!  This is terrible!  I just want to go back home, put on my jammies and crawl into bed.

Week 2 – OK Melissa, it’s OK.  You’re doing great.  Whatever you do, do not make eye contact.

Week 3 – This isn’t so bad.  Stop pretending like you don’t see people!  Say hi!  You’re working on being healthy…and so is everyone else in the gym!

I have learned that you have to be uncomfortable to make progress.  Nothing will change if you do the same things all the time.  Getting out of your comfort zone is key!

Great changes are a comin’!  I just have to keep pushing myself – and keep stepping outside of what I am used to.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 18 – Day 7 — Measuring Progress

I hit a small speed-bump along my road to recovery this week.  It was the “Progress” speed-bump.

I have been moving along on this journey fairly well.  I have made healthy changes in my life through following a nutrition and training plan to a “T”.

Then came ….the bump!

I decided to hop on the scale, just for kicks.  To my surprise the number on the scale was the exact same as when I started this process 18 weeks ago.  This surprised me, and brought me down a few notches.  All I could think was, “with all of the changes that I have made…why is that number being so stubborn?”

After a bit of time, I came to my senses.  My progress is not entirely measured by the number on the scale.

Since starting this process I can name a number of areas in my life that have improved.  I am happier.  I have time to do the things that I love.  I have a healthier relationship with food.  I have a plan and know that I am moving in the right direction.

For me, progress is steady improvement.  Dropping weight quickly is what got me into this mess…dropping it slowly will help to get me out of it!

Thank you for reading my progress thoughts!  Enjoy your holiday!

Melissa


Week 17 – Day 1 — Gym Anxiety

Well…today was day one of my new program. Up until today I’ve been doing all of my workouts at home. Today I ventured back into the weight room at the gym. I used to walk around that place and not blink an eye – it wouldn’t bother me at all!

Today was hard. I really struggled with it. I wore really baggy clothes and tried to hide my way through my workout. I wanted to draw as little attention as possible…which was hard because my program includes exercises that make me look like a crazy person!!!

This is a complete shift from how I used to be. I used to love the gym. I still like it, but wish I could have it all to myself:).

I pushed through it. I may feel defeated on one front, but I feel great on another.  I’m on week 17!  Week 17 of a program and diet that I can maintain and enjoy.

I’ll get comfortable at the gym again. You have to step out of your comfort zone to make changes right?!  Well then – change is a comin’!

Do you get gym anxiety?  How do you deal with it?

Positive disruption = positive change!!

Melissa


Week 15 – Day 6 — Chewing off bite sized pieces of a full plate

I am awake at 6am on a Sunday so that I can go get my workout in…yes this is voluntary!  There is no pressing reason for me to REALLY be doing this, I just want to.

I know what you’re thinking, “This girl is off her rocker!  It’s Sunday.  Go back to bed!” 

I used to go to the gym because I had to.  I had to get myself stage ready.  The thought of walking on stage in high heels and wearing next to nothing was pretty good motivation!  The issue with this is that I didn’t enjoy it.  I didn’t really want to be at the gym.  It became one more thing that I had to do.  It was like I tried to put too many things on my plate, because if it was overflowing and I was managing it, then everyone would see how capable I was.

I used to tell people about my jam-packed existence with pride, now I look back at it and find it a bit scary!!  What I was working toward actually started to define me — not good!  I am so glad those days are over! 

These days I enjoy my gym time.  It’ is just challenging enough and not overly time-consuming.  I find I work hard because I enjoy it.   No more just going through the motions! 

I’m happier and healthier in all facets of my life.  I have struck a good balance.  I’m taking on the world in a sensible way, and scrapping my old “pile it on” frame of mind 🙂

Onward and upward!

Melissa

 


Week 14 – Day 5 — Milestone!

I’ve never been so excited about taking so long to lose a bit of weight!

Wow, nearly a full 15 weeks in!  15 weeks is really significant for me.  This is the longest I’ve stuck with a program since I last competed.  The last time I competed, I dieted for 15 weeks and lost 30lbs.  This time around, I honestly think I may have lost maybe 5lbs?  And that’s a definite maybe!

5 lbs vs. 30…. and I am so ok with it!  For the past 15 weeks I have learned to maintain a healthy lifestyle that is not overly demanding.  I eat clean, I exercise about 45 minutes 5 days a week, and that’s it!  Oh, and I’ll have a treat once in awhile 🙂  I really feel like my metabolism may be starting to realize that I am not going to put it through the ringer again.

Go me!  This new program is definitely paying off.  I’m a happier, healthier version of myself.

Happier Healthier Me!

Photo taken by my 4 year old son, as I lace up his skates 🙂 Not the most flattering...but it captures my current outlook on life!

  

 

Week 8 – Day 7 — Being “Present”

Do you ever feel like you’re just present? Like you’re there where you’re supposed to be, but you’re not really fully there?

When I was training for a show…I think this started happening to me – and then it continued for a long time after. I would be at work or at a family function and be somewhere else mentally. I’d be thinking about when I would get my workout in that day, or where I could get some broccoli and chicken!!

I’m working on being in the moment – on being physically and mentally present. Suddenly my weekends at home with my little guy mean so much more!!! I am really learning to cherish these times and making sure take it all in 100%.

Wow! What a journey this is. I’m learning a lot!

Until next time!
Melissa


Week 8 – Day 1 — Guilt Free Calorie Packed Weekend!!

Wow…Week 8 of good eating and exercising.  Am I on a healthy track?  I think so!  Am I learning how to maintain balance…getting there! 

This weekend I let loose.  I really did.  I went out for dinner with friends and ended up drinking a lot of gin and soda – and actually went dancing.  It has been awhile!  I was home by midnight but in the short time that I was gone I was at 4 pubs, ate pizza, Oreos, and came home with someone else’s jacket!  What a night.  I am hoping my to get MY jacket back from the coat check…I really hope it is still there!

You know what?  I don’t feel guilty about it at all.  I think I needed it.  If this was last fall, I would feel guilty for days and try to compensate training harder and cutting calories.  No more beating myself up!  Everyone needs to have fun once in a while!

I am starting to focus less on diet and nutrition.  Now that is a sign of success!!

Ok Week 8 – I am going to take you by storm!!

How does everyone out there deal with diet guilt?  Do you have any strategies? 

Take care!

Melissa


Week 7 – Day 3 — General Wellness

“How have you been?”  What a loaded question!  I always smile and answer it without thinking.  “Not bad!”, “Great!”, “Same old, same old”….

Today someone asked me this standard pleasantry.  I felt he had a genuine interest, so I gave him a genuine answer.  Can you guess what it was?   

“Great!”

Ha!  In all seriousness, that was my response and it was a quick one.  Ironic?  Somewhat.  The difference is that this time around my answer wasn’t empty.  I thought about it and came to the conclusion that  I have created for myself a general feeling of wellness.

For me a general feeling of wellness is feeling positive, on top of things, sharp, playful, etc.  I attribute this all to the journey that I have been on for the past 6.5 weeks.  I feel like I am regaining control.  My mind is right – I am beginning to understand the importance of balance. 

So why am I so content?  What has this journey done for me?  Well, how about a pie analogy (who doesn’t love pie?)  If I were a pie with many pieces, each piece representing a part of my identity, what would each piece be? 

 My focus has shifted to the things in my life that are the most important.  I have let go of my belief that competing is part of who I am, and have placed that energy where it needs to be.  No more worrying about getting the exercise in and eating chicken!

This road that I am on is a great one…things are being put into perspective.  And… I feel great!


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