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Week 22 – Going it Alone!

New ideas/experiences challenge our thinking and inevitably force us to construct new knowledge.

I am trying to be mindful of this.  I am taking a class at university that is challenging my way of thinking – and the way I conduct myself.  The class is set in a social, collaborative environment.  It is a group of women talking about women and how we best learn and how we could best teach women.  The class is very comfortable – so the internal struggles and conflicts are non-existent.  Everyone shares and creativity ensues.

I love this class!  The concepts are difficult, but our knowledge is created mutually within the group.  The only conflicts experienced are those that challenge our existing beliefs – causing us to think critically and possibly alter our point of view.

What does this have to do with my training?!!

Well, I have decided to leave my trainer and go it alone.  I always thought I needed someone to instruct me when/what to eat, how to train.  This is something I believed about myself.  I didn’t think I could do it on my own.  Well, after thinking critically about it, I have decided that YES I can!

Here goes 🙂

Melissa


Week 21 – Day 2 — A-ha!!!!

I’m on a flight pondering…it isn’t very often that we have time to ponder these days!!

This journey, my attempt to get my metabolism back in check, has now spanned 5 months. During this time I have learned a lot about myself – perhaps some things that I didn’t want to admit.

I knew that my view of food, and what was normal was skewed. I had no idea how to eat without a meal plan – or was that an excuse? For months I would have whatever I wanted, because my metabolism was so bad it didn’t matter anymore – but was this true?

I, very cleverly, convinced myself that I was a lost cause and that the damage was done. I used my metabolism as a crutch, so that I DIDN’T need to worry about food and weight….

At the time I was convinced that I had done serious damage – and perhaps I did. But now I am realizing that half of my trouble was likely a result of my need to blame the issue on something else, something outside of my actions, something out of my control.

These past few weeks I have had a revelation! An “a-ha” moment!! This may seem really simple, but I just needed to realize that I control my weight. I make the decision what to eat, when to eat it, the amount of activity I do, etc. Regardless of the training I have done in the past, I truly know how to eat and train – the problem was that I just didn’t want to do it anymore.

Here and now – I am taking back control of my actions and thoughts about nutrition and training. I am determined to get to a happy place, and I will.

A bit of a heavy, personal rant! Just got on a roll… And kept on rolling!!

Has anyone else had experiences like this? Have you ever talked yourself into believing something was wrong…when it really was not?

Melissa


Week 20 – Day 6 — Catchy Motivation

I went to see a bodybuilding show today.  Everyone looked fantastic!  There was a lot of hard work and dedication!  It was fun to be in the crowd watching, as opposed to being part of the show.  I definitely enjoyed it.

It is fantastic to see people reach their goals.  The competitors presented themselves very professionally, and you could see their pride and enthusiasm shining through.  What a wonderful experience!

My motivation is through the roof.  I think I may have caught it from the competitors at the show today 🙂  There is nothing like seeing what is possible, to give you that extra push.

I am feeling fine!  I started a new nutrition plan this week, and have endless energy 🙂  Woot!  Now I have increased motivation to boot!

Go me!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 18 – Day 7 — Measuring Progress

I hit a small speed-bump along my road to recovery this week.  It was the “Progress” speed-bump.

I have been moving along on this journey fairly well.  I have made healthy changes in my life through following a nutrition and training plan to a “T”.

Then came ….the bump!

I decided to hop on the scale, just for kicks.  To my surprise the number on the scale was the exact same as when I started this process 18 weeks ago.  This surprised me, and brought me down a few notches.  All I could think was, “with all of the changes that I have made…why is that number being so stubborn?”

After a bit of time, I came to my senses.  My progress is not entirely measured by the number on the scale.

Since starting this process I can name a number of areas in my life that have improved.  I am happier.  I have time to do the things that I love.  I have a healthier relationship with food.  I have a plan and know that I am moving in the right direction.

For me, progress is steady improvement.  Dropping weight quickly is what got me into this mess…dropping it slowly will help to get me out of it!

Thank you for reading my progress thoughts!  Enjoy your holiday!

Melissa


Week 17 – Day 6 — Ode to Girl Guide Cookies

Girl Guide Cookies

What is it that I can’t resist?

I’ve never had so much trouble with this.

Chocolate or vanilla, it’s up to me,

And all for a good cause it seems.

Stopping at one just can’t be done.

It  looks as though you have won.

Just what you do to me I’ll never quite know,

Why am I addicted to half-assed oreos?!

~**~


Week 17 – Day 1 — Gym Anxiety

Well…today was day one of my new program. Up until today I’ve been doing all of my workouts at home. Today I ventured back into the weight room at the gym. I used to walk around that place and not blink an eye – it wouldn’t bother me at all!

Today was hard. I really struggled with it. I wore really baggy clothes and tried to hide my way through my workout. I wanted to draw as little attention as possible…which was hard because my program includes exercises that make me look like a crazy person!!!

This is a complete shift from how I used to be. I used to love the gym. I still like it, but wish I could have it all to myself:).

I pushed through it. I may feel defeated on one front, but I feel great on another.  I’m on week 17!  Week 17 of a program and diet that I can maintain and enjoy.

I’ll get comfortable at the gym again. You have to step out of your comfort zone to make changes right?!  Well then – change is a comin’!

Do you get gym anxiety?  How do you deal with it?

Positive disruption = positive change!!

Melissa


Week 15 – Day 6 — Chewing off bite sized pieces of a full plate

I am awake at 6am on a Sunday so that I can go get my workout in…yes this is voluntary!  There is no pressing reason for me to REALLY be doing this, I just want to.

I know what you’re thinking, “This girl is off her rocker!  It’s Sunday.  Go back to bed!” 

I used to go to the gym because I had to.  I had to get myself stage ready.  The thought of walking on stage in high heels and wearing next to nothing was pretty good motivation!  The issue with this is that I didn’t enjoy it.  I didn’t really want to be at the gym.  It became one more thing that I had to do.  It was like I tried to put too many things on my plate, because if it was overflowing and I was managing it, then everyone would see how capable I was.

I used to tell people about my jam-packed existence with pride, now I look back at it and find it a bit scary!!  What I was working toward actually started to define me — not good!  I am so glad those days are over! 

These days I enjoy my gym time.  It’ is just challenging enough and not overly time-consuming.  I find I work hard because I enjoy it.   No more just going through the motions! 

I’m happier and healthier in all facets of my life.  I have struck a good balance.  I’m taking on the world in a sensible way, and scrapping my old “pile it on” frame of mind 🙂

Onward and upward!

Melissa

 


Week 14 – Day 5 — Milestone!

I’ve never been so excited about taking so long to lose a bit of weight!

Wow, nearly a full 15 weeks in!  15 weeks is really significant for me.  This is the longest I’ve stuck with a program since I last competed.  The last time I competed, I dieted for 15 weeks and lost 30lbs.  This time around, I honestly think I may have lost maybe 5lbs?  And that’s a definite maybe!

5 lbs vs. 30…. and I am so ok with it!  For the past 15 weeks I have learned to maintain a healthy lifestyle that is not overly demanding.  I eat clean, I exercise about 45 minutes 5 days a week, and that’s it!  Oh, and I’ll have a treat once in awhile 🙂  I really feel like my metabolism may be starting to realize that I am not going to put it through the ringer again.

Go me!  This new program is definitely paying off.  I’m a happier, healthier version of myself.

Happier Healthier Me!

Photo taken by my 4 year old son, as I lace up his skates 🙂 Not the most flattering...but it captures my current outlook on life!

  

 

Week 11- Day 2 — “Fraud”?

Training and diet are going well. I seem to have struck a good balance, and am staying positive!

I have been traveling for work the past couple of days. Maintaining my diet while traveling used to cause me a great deal of anxiety. I am proud to say, as I fly home, that my diet was not perfect but was not out of control – and I am ok with that! This tells me that my focus has shifted, and that this process is working.

Now for my weekly attempt to be deep 🙂

Now that I have this new found focus time, I am spending a lot of time thinking and reflecting.

Have you ever been in a room with a group of people, and wonder why you are there? Wonder what exactly you are contributing? Scared of being “found out” – based on your own view of your strengths and weaknesses?

I deal with this. I am constantly at war with myself, insisting on the one hand that I am qualified and that my thoughts matter while on the other hand terrified of making a comment and coming across as a “fraud”.

I am realizing that perfection is not attainable. People make mistakes. That is how we grow and discover. We don’t have to be perfect to contribute!!!

I don’t have to have the best physique.

I don’t have to know all the right answers all the time.

I don’t have to know the absolute best way to parent.

I DO need to voice my thoughts more. Thoughts provoke questions and lead to discovery. If we don’t contribute our thoughts – it is a lost opportunity!

I guess I have been found out. By myself!! I am going to make a point of contributing more, and in all aspects of my life.

Thanks for listening to my inner struggles! The journey continues!!!

Melissa


Week 10 – Day 2 — Triggers

I miss chocolate.

I have been so good!  I think I will treat myself tomorrow 🙂  I’m really cognizant of my cravings.  After  being so focused on food for so long, and now trying to get away from that way of being, I am fully aware of my triggers.  You know, the things in your life that just make you want to eat everything in sight.

I know that one of my triggers is being too restrictive with my diet.  If I go too long without a little treat, I start to think about it…then think about it some more…then really really think about it…eventually I’m pretty much dreaming about it!  When it gets to that point, I’m about ready to buy out the chocolate stock at the local grocery store.

So, now that I am in full control of my nutrition, and am aware of my cravings – I am going to have a piece of chocolate before I go over the edge and into chocolate heaven!!

What are your triggers?  How often do you treat yourself?  Are you able to stop at just a piece? 

I know that two months ago, I would eat more than my fill of chocolate.  Not anymore!  Success!!!

Happy Treating!

Melissa


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