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Week 22 – Going it Alone!

New ideas/experiences challenge our thinking and inevitably force us to construct new knowledge.

I am trying to be mindful of this.  I am taking a class at university that is challenging my way of thinking – and the way I conduct myself.  The class is set in a social, collaborative environment.  It is a group of women talking about women and how we best learn and how we could best teach women.  The class is very comfortable – so the internal struggles and conflicts are non-existent.  Everyone shares and creativity ensues.

I love this class!  The concepts are difficult, but our knowledge is created mutually within the group.  The only conflicts experienced are those that challenge our existing beliefs – causing us to think critically and possibly alter our point of view.

What does this have to do with my training?!!

Well, I have decided to leave my trainer and go it alone.  I always thought I needed someone to instruct me when/what to eat, how to train.  This is something I believed about myself.  I didn’t think I could do it on my own.  Well, after thinking critically about it, I have decided that YES I can!

Here goes 🙂

Melissa

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Week 20 – Day 6 — Catchy Motivation

I went to see a bodybuilding show today.  Everyone looked fantastic!  There was a lot of hard work and dedication!  It was fun to be in the crowd watching, as opposed to being part of the show.  I definitely enjoyed it.

It is fantastic to see people reach their goals.  The competitors presented themselves very professionally, and you could see their pride and enthusiasm shining through.  What a wonderful experience!

My motivation is through the roof.  I think I may have caught it from the competitors at the show today 🙂  There is nothing like seeing what is possible, to give you that extra push.

I am feeling fine!  I started a new nutrition plan this week, and have endless energy 🙂  Woot!  Now I have increased motivation to boot!

Go me!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 19 – Day 5 — Comfort Zone = No Change Zone!

It seems as though I am a Friday night kind of blogger 🙂

This was my third week back at the gym – back in my old stomping grounds!

When I was training for competition I loved being in the gym.  I loved everything about it.  At that time I was really comfortable in my skin and throwing a bit of weight around didn’t bother me one bit.

Up until three weeks ago I had been doing the majority of my workouts at home.  I really enjoyed this because I didn’t have to worry about the “gym crowd” being around.  I would saunter down to my basement and get my workout in.  This quickly became my comfort zone.

Or was it my “No Change Zone”?  Let me try to explain what I mean…

The recent changes in my training plan have me back at the gym.  This was really tough for me at first (gym anxiety).  I was nervous about seeing people there that I used to see when I was in competition shape.  I was constantly worried about what they were thinking…if they would think I had just given up.  I kind of sort of maybe really wanted to walk around with a sign on my back that said “Metabolically Damaged”.

Summary of my last three weeks’ gym experience:

Week 1 – Ahhhhh!!!!  This is terrible!  I just want to go back home, put on my jammies and crawl into bed.

Week 2 – OK Melissa, it’s OK.  You’re doing great.  Whatever you do, do not make eye contact.

Week 3 – This isn’t so bad.  Stop pretending like you don’t see people!  Say hi!  You’re working on being healthy…and so is everyone else in the gym!

I have learned that you have to be uncomfortable to make progress.  Nothing will change if you do the same things all the time.  Getting out of your comfort zone is key!

Great changes are a comin’!  I just have to keep pushing myself – and keep stepping outside of what I am used to.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 18 – Day 7 — Measuring Progress

I hit a small speed-bump along my road to recovery this week.  It was the “Progress” speed-bump.

I have been moving along on this journey fairly well.  I have made healthy changes in my life through following a nutrition and training plan to a “T”.

Then came ….the bump!

I decided to hop on the scale, just for kicks.  To my surprise the number on the scale was the exact same as when I started this process 18 weeks ago.  This surprised me, and brought me down a few notches.  All I could think was, “with all of the changes that I have made…why is that number being so stubborn?”

After a bit of time, I came to my senses.  My progress is not entirely measured by the number on the scale.

Since starting this process I can name a number of areas in my life that have improved.  I am happier.  I have time to do the things that I love.  I have a healthier relationship with food.  I have a plan and know that I am moving in the right direction.

For me, progress is steady improvement.  Dropping weight quickly is what got me into this mess…dropping it slowly will help to get me out of it!

Thank you for reading my progress thoughts!  Enjoy your holiday!

Melissa


Week 17 – Day 6 — Ode to Girl Guide Cookies

Girl Guide Cookies

What is it that I can’t resist?

I’ve never had so much trouble with this.

Chocolate or vanilla, it’s up to me,

And all for a good cause it seems.

Stopping at one just can’t be done.

It  looks as though you have won.

Just what you do to me I’ll never quite know,

Why am I addicted to half-assed oreos?!

~**~


Week 17 – Day 1 — Gym Anxiety

Well…today was day one of my new program. Up until today I’ve been doing all of my workouts at home. Today I ventured back into the weight room at the gym. I used to walk around that place and not blink an eye – it wouldn’t bother me at all!

Today was hard. I really struggled with it. I wore really baggy clothes and tried to hide my way through my workout. I wanted to draw as little attention as possible…which was hard because my program includes exercises that make me look like a crazy person!!!

This is a complete shift from how I used to be. I used to love the gym. I still like it, but wish I could have it all to myself:).

I pushed through it. I may feel defeated on one front, but I feel great on another.  I’m on week 17!  Week 17 of a program and diet that I can maintain and enjoy.

I’ll get comfortable at the gym again. You have to step out of your comfort zone to make changes right?!  Well then – change is a comin’!

Do you get gym anxiety?  How do you deal with it?

Positive disruption = positive change!!

Melissa


Week 16 – Day 6 — Change taking up too much thought space

Change… how do you feel when you hear/read that word?  I suppose it depends on the context it is used in.

For me it goes something like this:

Spare change = Yay!  Coffee money!

Change initiated by me = Changes that I think are positive and needed.

Change of any other kind = Let me stew on this for a bit and figure out how I feel about it.

There is something lingering in my mind and gaining more and more thought space as the days pass by.  There are some big changes in my not so distant future.  We are moving to another province, have to sell our house, pack all of our belongings and make the trek before Fall.  It really isn’t too far from where we live now, but it is just far enough from all of our family and friends.

Now, I am a positive person, but I am having trouble with this one.  I need some extra positive energy.  I have no motivation to get my house ready for sale.  I think that if I could find some positives about this move I would have that umph that I need!  In a previous blog post I discussed positive vs. negative motivation….I think I need some positive motivation!!

Help!!  What do you do when change shakes things up for you?  Do you put a positive spin on it and use that energy to keep moving forward?

Currently unmotivated and distressed!

Melissa


Week 15 – Day 6 — Chewing off bite sized pieces of a full plate

I am awake at 6am on a Sunday so that I can go get my workout in…yes this is voluntary!  There is no pressing reason for me to REALLY be doing this, I just want to.

I know what you’re thinking, “This girl is off her rocker!  It’s Sunday.  Go back to bed!” 

I used to go to the gym because I had to.  I had to get myself stage ready.  The thought of walking on stage in high heels and wearing next to nothing was pretty good motivation!  The issue with this is that I didn’t enjoy it.  I didn’t really want to be at the gym.  It became one more thing that I had to do.  It was like I tried to put too many things on my plate, because if it was overflowing and I was managing it, then everyone would see how capable I was.

I used to tell people about my jam-packed existence with pride, now I look back at it and find it a bit scary!!  What I was working toward actually started to define me — not good!  I am so glad those days are over! 

These days I enjoy my gym time.  It’ is just challenging enough and not overly time-consuming.  I find I work hard because I enjoy it.   No more just going through the motions! 

I’m happier and healthier in all facets of my life.  I have struck a good balance.  I’m taking on the world in a sensible way, and scrapping my old “pile it on” frame of mind 🙂

Onward and upward!

Melissa

 


Week 10 – Day 2 — Triggers

I miss chocolate.

I have been so good!  I think I will treat myself tomorrow 🙂  I’m really cognizant of my cravings.  After  being so focused on food for so long, and now trying to get away from that way of being, I am fully aware of my triggers.  You know, the things in your life that just make you want to eat everything in sight.

I know that one of my triggers is being too restrictive with my diet.  If I go too long without a little treat, I start to think about it…then think about it some more…then really really think about it…eventually I’m pretty much dreaming about it!  When it gets to that point, I’m about ready to buy out the chocolate stock at the local grocery store.

So, now that I am in full control of my nutrition, and am aware of my cravings – I am going to have a piece of chocolate before I go over the edge and into chocolate heaven!!

What are your triggers?  How often do you treat yourself?  Are you able to stop at just a piece? 

I know that two months ago, I would eat more than my fill of chocolate.  Not anymore!  Success!!!

Happy Treating!

Melissa


Week 9 – Day 3 — Happiness

What makes you happy?  A friend of mine told me recently that she needs to make some changes in her life because she deserves to be happy.  This got me thinking. 

Happiness is a tricky thing.  How do we figure out what will make us happy?  Once we commit to an idea of happiness, are we able to move on when it doesn’t work out?  Are we able to ever achieve true happiness? 

I am guilty of searching for happiness.  Grasping onto ideas that I believe will result in sunshine, puppies and kittens!  I would throw myself into achieving extreme goals, and achieve some of them…only to feel a disservice in the end.  No matter what, my idea of happiness just did not happen.  In some cases it made me miserable.

Now, I am a positive person but that last paragraph is downright sad!  The point is, up until now I have been searching for happiness outside of myself:

  • Being in my best shape possible will make me happy – Nope!  It’ll make me tired and a bit cranky!
  • Getting my Masters will make me happy – Not yet…so far it’s made me really busy!

The list goes on!

The journey has morphed from physical health to mental as well.  I find that I am searching within and really thinking about life and my focus.  Today my happiness is a result of knowing I have control over my life.  I guess you could say I am being more assertive with myself.  I spend my time where I want to (family!), I maintain a healthy reasonable diet, I have  a maintainable exercise regime, the list goes on.  I have changed my view of myself, and am  becoming ok with being me. 

I believe that happiness is a result of being ok with yourself.  The things that you think make you happy – really take a step back and think about them.  Are you constantly stressed while working toward your goal?  Not to say that I do not experience stress, but these days it is a lot less!

We DO deserve to be happy!! 

This friend of mine is wise.  She looked within and is making a change for her well-being – letting go of social expectations for her own happiness.  Very admirable!

Thanks for reading my happiness rant 🙂

Melissa

Oh…and my diet and nutrition are going well too! – Thought I had better provide an update…since that what my blog was originally about!

 


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