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Week 19 – Day 5 — Comfort Zone = No Change Zone!

It seems as though I am a Friday night kind of blogger ūüôā

This was my third week back at the gym – back in my old stomping grounds!

When I was training for competition I loved being in the gym. ¬†I loved everything about it. ¬†At that time I was really comfortable in my skin and throwing a bit of weight around didn’t bother me one bit.

Up until three weeks ago I had been doing the majority of my workouts at home. ¬†I really enjoyed this because I didn’t have to worry about the “gym crowd” being around. ¬†I would saunter down to my basement and get my workout in. ¬†This quickly became my comfort zone.

Or was it my “No Change Zone”? ¬†Let me try to explain what I mean…

The recent changes in my training plan have me back at the gym. ¬†This was really tough for me at first (gym anxiety). ¬†I was nervous about seeing people there that I used to see when I was in competition shape. ¬†I was constantly worried about what they were thinking…if they would think I had just given up. ¬†I kind of sort of maybe really wanted to walk around with a sign on my back that said “Metabolically Damaged”.

Summary of my last three weeks’ gym experience:

Week 1 РAhhhhh!!!!  This is terrible!  I just want to go back home, put on my jammies and crawl into bed.

Week 2 – OK Melissa, it’s OK. ¬†You’re doing great. ¬†Whatever you do, do not make eye contact.

Week 3 – This isn’t so bad. ¬†Stop pretending like you don’t see people! ¬†Say hi! ¬†You’re working on being healthy…and so is everyone else in the gym!

I have learned that you have to be uncomfortable to make progress.  Nothing will change if you do the same things all the time.  Getting out of your comfort zone is key!

Great changes are a comin’! ¬†I just have to keep pushing myself – and keep stepping outside of what I am used to.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Melissa

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Week 15 – Day 6 — Chewing off bite sized pieces of a full plate

I am awake at 6am on a Sunday so that I can go get my workout in…yes¬†this is voluntary!¬† There is no pressing reason for me to REALLY be doing this, I just want to.

I know what you’re thinking, “This girl is off her rocker!¬†¬†It’s¬†Sunday.¬† Go back to bed!”¬†

I used to go to the gym because I had to.¬† I had to get myself stage ready.¬† The thought of walking on stage in high heels and wearing next to nothing was pretty good motivation!¬† The issue with this is that I didn’t enjoy it.¬† I didn’t really want to be at the gym.¬† It became one more thing that I had to do.¬† It was like I tried to put¬†too¬†many¬†things¬†on my plate, because if it was overflowing and I was managing it, then everyone would see how capable I was.

I used to tell people about my jam-packed existence with pride, now I look back at it and find it a bit scary!!¬† What I was working toward actually started to define me — not good!¬† I am so glad those days are over!¬†

These days I enjoy my gym time.¬† It’ is just challenging enough and not overly time-consuming.¬† I find I work hard because I enjoy it.¬†¬† No more just going through the motions!¬†

I’m happier and healthier in all facets of my life.¬† I have struck a good balance.¬† I’m taking on the world in a sensible way, and scrapping my old “pile it on” frame of mind ūüôā

Onward and upward!

Melissa

 


Week 8 – Day 1 — Guilt Free Calorie Packed Weekend!!

Wow…Week 8 of good eating and exercising.¬† Am I on a healthy track?¬† I think so!¬† Am I learning how to maintain balance…getting there!¬†

This weekend I let loose.¬† I really did.¬† I went out for dinner with friends and ended up drinking a lot of gin and¬†soda – and actually went dancing.¬† It has been awhile!¬† I was home by midnight but in the short time that I was gone¬†I was at 4 pubs, ate pizza, Oreos, and came home with someone else’s jacket!¬† What a night.¬† I am hoping my to get MY jacket back from the coat check…I really hope it is still there!

You know what?¬† I don’t feel guilty about it at all.¬† I think I needed it.¬† If this was last fall, I would feel guilty for days and try to compensate training harder and cutting calories.¬† No more beating myself up!¬† Everyone needs to have fun once in a while!

I am starting to focus less on diet and nutrition.  Now that is a sign of success!!

Ok Week 8 – I am going to take you by storm!!

How does everyone out there deal with diet guilt?  Do you have any strategies? 

Take care!

Melissa


Week 7 – Day 3 — General Wellness

“How have you been?”¬† What a loaded question!¬†¬†I always¬†smile and answer it without thinking.¬† “Not bad!”, “Great!”, “Same old, same old”….

Today someone asked me this standard pleasantry.  I felt he had a genuine interest, so I gave him a genuine answer.  Can you guess what it was?   

“Great!”

Ha!¬† In all seriousness, that was my response and it was a quick one.¬† Ironic?¬† Somewhat.¬†¬†The difference is that this time around my answer¬†wasn’t empty.¬† I thought about it and¬†came to the conclusion that¬†¬†I have created for myself a general feeling of wellness.

For me a general feeling of wellness is feeling positive, on top of things, sharp, playful, etc.  I attribute this all to the journey that I have been on for the past 6.5 weeks.  I feel like I am regaining control.  My mind is right РI am beginning to understand the importance of balance. 

So why am I so content?¬† What has this journey done for me?¬† Well, how about a pie analogy (who doesn’t love pie?)¬† If I were a pie with many pieces, each piece representing a part of my identity, what would each piece be?¬†

 My focus has shifted to the things in my life that are the most important.  I have let go of my belief that competing is part of who I am, and have placed that energy where it needs to be.  No more worrying about getting the exercise in and eating chicken!

This road that I am on is a great one…things are being put into perspective.¬† And… I feel great!


Week 6 – Day 7 — Progress!

This is working!  And I have proof!

Last Friday was a day filled with meetings.¬† I was not able to maintain my food timings.¬† I missed one snack, and my lunch was very rushed.¬† At the end of the day I was shaky… I haven’t felt like that in a long time.¬† Usually, on days like this, I would call it an “off” day and run home to eat everything in sight.¬† I would promise myself that the next day I would stick very strictly to the diet.¬†

But not last Friday.  Last Friday, I picked up my nutrition plan right where I left off.  I finished the day eating what I was supposed to, and did not stray from it.  I rode this wave for the rest of the weekend.  Success!  This process is working!!  I am retraining my mind and my relationship with food. 

I am more motivated than ever before.

Let’s go Week 7!

 


Week 6 – Day 4 — Mental State = Positive

It is so snowy outside!¬† I’m talking blizzard conditions!

This has been a good week so far.¬† My diet is going well and the circuits are still good.¬† As I’ve written before, this is becoming more of a mental journey than anything else.

A friend and I often meet for coffee and discuss our issues with nutrition and training.¬† She is in the same boat as me – former body-builder with slowed metabolism as a result of drastically losing weight.¬†¬†The last time we met, there just happened to be a local university newspaper on the table at the coffee shop.¬† Low and behold…there was an article titled “It’s Not About Food”.¬† That article was meant to be there, I just know it!

The article was about a support group for university students with food issues.¬† The group meets one night a week for 6 weeks.¬† Well, didn’t we jump at the chance to contact the author of the article!!¬† We have now been accepted as members of the group.¬† I am really excited about it.¬† I am so looking forward to meeting other people with the same issues as me.

We may also get the chance to speak to a group of nursing students about our story.  This is great!  I hope that our respective stories will help others to understand what can happen with a drastic weight loss.  Not only physically, but mentally too. 

My current mental state = positive. 

Take care,

Melissa


Week 6 – Day 1 — Wants!

Week 6!  I made it to Week 6!

Everything is going well.¬† I am now up to 4 rounds/circuit, and my diet is going fantastic.¬† This is such a process.¬† I am realizing so much.¬† I feel like I need to get my thoughts out, like there is something fantastic in my head that the world may benefit from.¬† Ha!!¬† I feel like I’m going to explode!

I am borderline obsessed with my health.  I think about it constantly.  It consumes me. 

I realized something today.¬† It is true that we always want what we can’t have.¬† When I was dieting strictly, I always wanted a treat.¬† No…I really really wanted a treat.¬† I wanted a treat so much that I would think about it and think about it, until my¬†“cheat” day.¬† Then I would eat too much of it.¬†

Now that I know I can have a treat now and then, I don’t want one.¬† I really don’t!¬† I have let go of the strict diet.¬† I eat clean, but no longer beat myself up about having a piece of chocolate now and then.¬† I know I can have it, and as a result I rarely do.

I am learning to let go of the wants!  I CAN have it if I really want it.

So if you want something – go get it!¬† Let go of the restrictions…your wants may disappear.

Take care,

Melissa


Week 5 – Day 6 — Patience

I have always been the person who wants to see instant results, needs instant gratification, needs to see things NOW. 

Some examples:

With previous dieting experiences I would see results within weeks, and was motivated to keep going because of it. 

Having a food “cheat” day, and going waaaay overboard with sugary foods because I loved the instant rush.

Getting frustrated with a build up for an exercise because I want to be able to just lift the target weight.

Submitting  projects and feverishly monitoring my transcript for the final result.

These are just a few.  Now, I am not suggesting that I am doing a complete shift from this, but I am noticing that my mindset is changing a bit.

I have now been doing the same circuit training and following the same diet plan for close to 6 weeks.  I have not seen a great deal of change physically, but am patiently waiting.  I trust that it will come (completely out of character)!  I am experiencing a change mentally.  I am not so focused on the physical, but am working on my mind and maintaining a positive outlook in this process. 

This journey to recovery is touching all parts of my life.  I am a happier person (people who know me would wonder if that is even possible!), loving life, and spending more time with my family.  I am learning to be patient.  After all Рgood things come to those who wait!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend,

Melissa


Week 4 – Day 7 — Positive vs. Negative Motivation

Here we go!¬† 2012!¬† What is your New Year’s resolution?¬† Mine is to get healthy – the right way.¬† I know it sounds vague, but I am already working toward this goal, and have my¬†resources in place.

This blog is not about New Year’s¬†resolutions though.¬† I have been thinking today about positive versus negative motivation.¬† What I mean is, doing something for the right reasons versus the wrong reasons.

I started thinking about the competitions that I have done, how I appeared to be so healthy, so happy, etc.¬† How did I go from that high, to gaining all the weight back (and then some) and feeling miserable?¬† This may sound like hocus pocus, but I believe that my negative transformation¬†stems from negative motivation.¬† I started competing because someone in my past said that I couldn’t do it (there is more to this story…).¬† I wanted to prove them wrong, very very badly!¬† I did prove them wrong.¬† I transformed myself and won an overall title.¬†

The negative motivation in this case:¬† Me wanting to throw my achievement in someone else’s face.¬†

This is completely out of character for me, but this truly was my motivation.  I believe that my negative motivation has led to my current negative result.

I have decided to turn this around.  I am turning it all around!  I am going to get healthy the right way Рfor my family and me.  I have no other motivation than that.  This is a completely positive experience that I am sure will lead to a positive result!  Positive thinking is powerful and I am going to prove it!

What is your motivation?  What pushes you toward your goals?  Get rid of the negative and embrace the positive, your achievements will be that much sweeter!

Take care,

Melissa


Week 4 – Day 4 — Sobering Reality or Boost to Motivation?

I read something today that was a bit discouraging.¬† It is called “The Fat Trap” and was blogged about earlier today.¬† If you search it up, you will find it (I’m still trying to figure this blogging thing out – not hard to tell eh?)

The jist of the blog reinforced what I have been thinking is my issue all along.  Dieting Рany kind of dieting Рcauses hormonal changes in the body.  Strict dieting for a prolonged period of time results in drastic hormonal changes, including those that affect hunger and metabolism.  The body protects itself by altering hormone levels Рand the final result is normally increased body weight. 

I wish I could tell my body that I am not going to put it through another dieting episode.  I am going to try and get my point across through eating good whole foods and not being too restrictive.  Perhaps my body will come around and realize that I am not going to bully it anymore :).

In the beginning of this post I stated that the blog was somewhat discouraging.¬† Well, the discouraging part read like this “This translates into a sobering reality: once we become fat, most of us, despite our best efforts, will probably stay fat”.¬† I disagree with this.¬† Actually, I completely disagree with this!¬† I am well aware that I have altered my hormone levels, but I am adamant about the fact that I will get them back to normal!

This has turned into a rant…

Is there anyone else out there who has worked themselves into this unique post-diet metabolic state?  We will get through this.  I think I have enough positivity for all of us!

Take care,

Melissa


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