Monthly Archives: April 2012

Week 21 – Day 2 — A-ha!!!!

I’m on a flight pondering…it isn’t very often that we have time to ponder these days!!

This journey, my attempt to get my metabolism back in check, has now spanned 5 months. During this time I have learned a lot about myself – perhaps some things that I didn’t want to admit.

I knew that my view of food, and what was normal was skewed. I had no idea how to eat without a meal plan – or was that an excuse? For months I would have whatever I wanted, because my metabolism was so bad it didn’t matter anymore – but was this true?

I, very cleverly, convinced myself that I was a lost cause and that the damage was done. I used my metabolism as a crutch, so that I DIDN’T need to worry about food and weight….

At the time I was convinced that I had done serious damage – and perhaps I did. But now I am realizing that half of my trouble was likely a result of my need to blame the issue on something else, something outside of my actions, something out of my control.

These past few weeks I have had a revelation! An “a-ha” moment!! This may seem really simple, but I just needed to realize that I control my weight. I make the decision what to eat, when to eat it, the amount of activity I do, etc. Regardless of the training I have done in the past, I truly know how to eat and train – the problem was that I just didn’t want to do it anymore.

Here and now – I am taking back control of my actions and thoughts about nutrition and training. I am determined to get to a happy place, and I will.

A bit of a heavy, personal rant! Just got on a roll… And kept on rolling!!

Has anyone else had experiences like this? Have you ever talked yourself into believing something was wrong…when it really was not?

Melissa


Week 20 – Day 6 — Catchy Motivation

I went to see a bodybuilding show today.  Everyone looked fantastic!  There was a lot of hard work and dedication!  It was fun to be in the crowd watching, as opposed to being part of the show.  I definitely enjoyed it.

It is fantastic to see people reach their goals.  The competitors presented themselves very professionally, and you could see their pride and enthusiasm shining through.  What a wonderful experience!

My motivation is through the roof.  I think I may have caught it from the competitors at the show today 🙂  There is nothing like seeing what is possible, to give you that extra push.

I am feeling fine!  I started a new nutrition plan this week, and have endless energy 🙂  Woot!  Now I have increased motivation to boot!

Go me!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 19 – Day 5 — Comfort Zone = No Change Zone!

It seems as though I am a Friday night kind of blogger 🙂

This was my third week back at the gym – back in my old stomping grounds!

When I was training for competition I loved being in the gym.  I loved everything about it.  At that time I was really comfortable in my skin and throwing a bit of weight around didn’t bother me one bit.

Up until three weeks ago I had been doing the majority of my workouts at home.  I really enjoyed this because I didn’t have to worry about the “gym crowd” being around.  I would saunter down to my basement and get my workout in.  This quickly became my comfort zone.

Or was it my “No Change Zone”?  Let me try to explain what I mean…

The recent changes in my training plan have me back at the gym.  This was really tough for me at first (gym anxiety).  I was nervous about seeing people there that I used to see when I was in competition shape.  I was constantly worried about what they were thinking…if they would think I had just given up.  I kind of sort of maybe really wanted to walk around with a sign on my back that said “Metabolically Damaged”.

Summary of my last three weeks’ gym experience:

Week 1 – Ahhhhh!!!!  This is terrible!  I just want to go back home, put on my jammies and crawl into bed.

Week 2 – OK Melissa, it’s OK.  You’re doing great.  Whatever you do, do not make eye contact.

Week 3 – This isn’t so bad.  Stop pretending like you don’t see people!  Say hi!  You’re working on being healthy…and so is everyone else in the gym!

I have learned that you have to be uncomfortable to make progress.  Nothing will change if you do the same things all the time.  Getting out of your comfort zone is key!

Great changes are a comin’!  I just have to keep pushing myself – and keep stepping outside of what I am used to.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Melissa


Week 18 – Day 7 — Measuring Progress

I hit a small speed-bump along my road to recovery this week.  It was the “Progress” speed-bump.

I have been moving along on this journey fairly well.  I have made healthy changes in my life through following a nutrition and training plan to a “T”.

Then came ….the bump!

I decided to hop on the scale, just for kicks.  To my surprise the number on the scale was the exact same as when I started this process 18 weeks ago.  This surprised me, and brought me down a few notches.  All I could think was, “with all of the changes that I have made…why is that number being so stubborn?”

After a bit of time, I came to my senses.  My progress is not entirely measured by the number on the scale.

Since starting this process I can name a number of areas in my life that have improved.  I am happier.  I have time to do the things that I love.  I have a healthier relationship with food.  I have a plan and know that I am moving in the right direction.

For me, progress is steady improvement.  Dropping weight quickly is what got me into this mess…dropping it slowly will help to get me out of it!

Thank you for reading my progress thoughts!  Enjoy your holiday!

Melissa


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