I’m on a flight pondering…it isn’t very often that we have time to ponder these days!!
This journey, my attempt to get my metabolism back in check, has now spanned 5 months. During this time I have learned a lot about myself – perhaps some things that I didn’t want to admit.
I knew that my view of food, and what was normal was skewed. I had no idea how to eat without a meal plan – or was that an excuse? For months I would have whatever I wanted, because my metabolism was so bad it didn’t matter anymore – but was this true?
I, very cleverly, convinced myself that I was a lost cause and that the damage was done. I used my metabolism as a crutch, so that I DIDN’T need to worry about food and weight….
At the time I was convinced that I had done serious damage – and perhaps I did. But now I am realizing that half of my trouble was likely a result of my need to blame the issue on something else, something outside of my actions, something out of my control.
These past few weeks I have had a revelation! An “a-ha” moment!! This may seem really simple, but I just needed to realize that I control my weight. I make the decision what to eat, when to eat it, the amount of activity I do, etc. Regardless of the training I have done in the past, I truly know how to eat and train – the problem was that I just didn’t want to do it anymore.
Here and now – I am taking back control of my actions and thoughts about nutrition and training. I am determined to get to a happy place, and I will.
A bit of a heavy, personal rant! Just got on a roll… And kept on rolling!!
Has anyone else had experiences like this? Have you ever talked yourself into believing something was wrong…when it really was not?