Training and diet are going well. I seem to have struck a good balance, and am staying positive!
I have been traveling for work the past couple of days. Maintaining my diet while traveling used to cause me a great deal of anxiety. I am proud to say, as I fly home, that my diet was not perfect but was not out of control – and I am ok with that! This tells me that my focus has shifted, and that this process is working.
Now for my weekly attempt to be deep 🙂
Now that I have this new found focus time, I am spending a lot of time thinking and reflecting.
Have you ever been in a room with a group of people, and wonder why you are there? Wonder what exactly you are contributing? Scared of being “found out” – based on your own view of your strengths and weaknesses?
I deal with this. I am constantly at war with myself, insisting on the one hand that I am qualified and that my thoughts matter while on the other hand terrified of making a comment and coming across as a “fraud”.
I am realizing that perfection is not attainable. People make mistakes. That is how we grow and discover. We don’t have to be perfect to contribute!!!
I don’t have to have the best physique.
I don’t have to know all the right answers all the time.
I don’t have to know the absolute best way to parent.
I DO need to voice my thoughts more. Thoughts provoke questions and lead to discovery. If we don’t contribute our thoughts – it is a lost opportunity!
I guess I have been found out. By myself!! I am going to make a point of contributing more, and in all aspects of my life.
Thanks for listening to my inner struggles! The journey continues!!!